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Jun. 13th, 2013 12:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valiant_kail[Filter: Private]
This is all so ...
I didn't even recognize her, at first. Not until she was formally introduced, and even then -- even then! She doesn't look ... Well. Of course she doesn't look anything like I remember. We were practically children. She's had children of her own, and it's been ... how many years has it been?
I thought that it would be ... that it would be something different. That it would be like things went back to -- to what they were before, or she'd look at me and there would be some spark, she'd remember or she'd say somethig, or -- and that's stupid, too, because she's married! Dragons. She's married, and I was sitting here thinking that maybe -- It's not that I wanted her to -- to look at me and think, oh, that man, if I'd only -- it's just that I thought it would be different!
I thought ...
... I thought I'd want that from her, but when she was introduced, I didn't know what I wanted anymore, did I? I just ... I wanted to stop thinking about it. I was ashamed of myself for thinking that -- that her knowing, or her looking at me, that it would solve everything, and that ... It was like the way she didn't look just reminded me of how stupid the idea was in the first place. She just smiled and nodded and -- and a few strange looks, but who doesn't give us strange looks ...
Eight years. Dragons, eight years ...
Why was I expecting things to just -- to just magically change? She's not the same girl I remember. And ... I guess I'm not the same person that she would remember, if she could, either.
And that's
[Filter: Celeste and Lawrence]
... Sorry. About today. I know I was acting off, I kept catching the way the two of you were looking at me ...
This is all so ...
I didn't even recognize her, at first. Not until she was formally introduced, and even then -- even then! She doesn't look ... Well. Of course she doesn't look anything like I remember. We were practically children. She's had children of her own, and it's been ... how many years has it been?
I thought that it would be ... that it would be something different. That it would be like things went back to -- to what they were before, or she'd look at me and there would be some spark, she'd remember or she'd say somethig, or -- and that's stupid, too, because she's married! Dragons. She's married, and I was sitting here thinking that maybe -- It's not that I wanted her to -- to look at me and think, oh, that man, if I'd only -- it's just that I thought it would be different!
I thought ...
... I thought I'd want that from her, but when she was introduced, I didn't know what I wanted anymore, did I? I just ... I wanted to stop thinking about it. I was ashamed of myself for thinking that -- that her knowing, or her looking at me, that it would solve everything, and that ... It was like the way she didn't look just reminded me of how stupid the idea was in the first place. She just smiled and nodded and -- and a few strange looks, but who doesn't give us strange looks ...
Eight years. Dragons, eight years ...
Why was I expecting things to just -- to just magically change? She's not the same girl I remember. And ... I guess I'm not the same person that she would remember, if she could, either.
[Filter: Celeste and Lawrence]
... Sorry. About today. I know I was acting off, I kept catching the way the two of you were looking at me ...
