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Apr. 1st, 2014 10:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valiant_kail[there are whiskey stains on this page]
[Filter: Sawyer]
You know the worst part of this is I know theres nothing there because you told me there's nothing there but it still makes me so angry to see you walk off with him! I promised I'd trust you and I told myself that nothing washappening but it's just so easy to think of all the things that could be happening!!
And its not even about him at all!! Well no it is. But not all about him.
Everybody was so upset that I was jealous and you know what I guess I am jealous. I keep thinking of him and you and him touching you and it just makes all the hair on the back of my neck stand up. It shouldnt be him. I know I said I was sorry and I am sorry but it shouldn't be him it should be me. If I hadnt been such acolo
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giant ass about the whole thing it could have been me!! And it makes me mad at him and mad at myself because its' not fair Sawyer it's just not. It should be me. Even if I'm sorry for what I said and did that doesn't matter it should be me. I was stupid to freak out about it and I was stupid to throw a tantrum and I was stupid to yell at Korvin but it's not fair! I made a dumb mistake with this entire everything and I just keep thinking about how nice it was to be with you and how stupid I was not to get that. To care more about everything else than about that! Than about how good it felt to be with you.
I know Iv'e been an ass to everybodyesp espeas espesialy you but I just wish things were different. I wish things were how they were again with us. I miss how it was. How we were.
Dragons it's so hard not to get even angrier just sitting here knowing that youre off with him!!!
[Filter: Sawyer]
You know the worst part of this is I know theres nothing there because you told me there's nothing there but it still makes me so angry to see you walk off with him! I promised I'd trust you and I told myself that nothing washappening but it's just so easy to think of all the things that could be happening!!
And its not even about him at all!! Well no it is. But not all about him.
Everybody was so upset that I was jealous and you know what I guess I am jealous. I keep thinking of him and you and him touching you and it just makes all the hair on the back of my neck stand up. It shouldnt be him. I know I said I was sorry and I am sorry but it shouldn't be him it should be me. If I hadnt been such a
giant ass about the whole thing it could have been me!! And it makes me mad at him and mad at myself because its' not fair Sawyer it's just not. It should be me. Even if I'm sorry for what I said and did that doesn't matter it should be me. I was stupid to freak out about it and I was stupid to throw a tantrum and I was stupid to yell at Korvin but it's not fair! I made a dumb mistake with this entire everything and I just keep thinking about how nice it was to be with you and how stupid I was not to get that. To care more about everything else than about that! Than about how good it felt to be with you.
I know Iv'e been an ass to everybody
Dragons it's so hard not to get even angrier just sitting here knowing that youre off with him!!!
